When I first got offered, I was asking myself can I do this? I didn't really tell my family until I sent out my resume and told my dad, this came twice I think I should give a try, either my dad support my decision and even he didn't agree I will still go. (To those who knows me know I am a stubborn)
This was second opportunity opened by this dear kakak (you know who you are) at the end of 2016, I said to myself, what the heck just go besides it is only 6 months which turned into 1 year now. Opportunity does not come thrice. So I begin my journey for 2017 at the Kingdom of Wonder.
2017. Whats with you? From happiness, to experienced almost bad depression to almost jobless at the foreign land (which at that point I'm not ready to go back). Experienced my first Raya Aidilfitri and Aidiladha as a perantau. It was another roller coster year for me, full of bitter coffee and condense milk:)
2017 turned me to a blunt person. Which I didn't really control what I had on my mind. I will just said what I feel without filter. To whom I might offended I'm sorry for it. 2017 also crushed my heart and hope repeatedly. I lost my muse completely.
2017, witnessed strangers became friends and it is like you knew them for ages and friends became stranger. 2017 also gave me the opportunity to be part of two big families (work families he3). 2017 sees some other changes in me too. I had my first hair color, learned to cook, cleaning house every 3 days, (never really did this is KL lol) and my survival in changing for betterment.
Who say it was easy living at the foreign land on your own, there wasn't a manual to survive but this is what you have to pay for your decision. Not to say I'm complaining, look at the bright side if I didn't make this choice at the first place, I might not have the chance to meet new people and traveling, experienced other culture. And obviously communication barrier. It was the funniest bit in my life journey here as you will discover your vocab might not be the same what people understand.
2017, I have learned some things with you. There are things that other sees and I didn't. People sees the negativity bubble surrounded me that I didn't even realize it. And I also learned if you see someone is turning negative never say you are negative to that individual please. Believed me it will make him or her more negative. Change him or her with a wise action. Always ask what is wrong not just put a distance between you with him or her.
I also learned back in Malaysia there are peoples worried about my well being. They are the friends I wish to keep with me. Thank you for being my shadow (those shadows, know who you are) without me knowing and please stay that way despite I can be really stubborn and royal pain in the ass :)
As the year end and emerge to the new year, I'm still here in the land full of Wonder, trying to gain back my strength to stand back at my own feet. It was not easy to find my muse back. It will take time but eventually I will surely pass it. All I need is to believe in myself. It does not take a blink of an eye to change.
As Richard Branson said H.A.P.P.I.N.E.S.S is not a goal it should be a habit. Habit is something you can't leave without. May the year 2018 will be fill with more love and glory. Happy New Year peeps:)
P/s: Im still in the new year mood hence that is why I just posted this.
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| Some momentous from 2017. |
